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“Who did I want to be as a kid?…and am I anything like her now?”
Challenging to answer at first. “I wanted to be so many things…” An opera singer, a writer, I wanted to be Frodo and Hermione at different stages, a princess at many. I wanted to become an archaeologist, an athlete, a hero. I was inspired by expedition adventures as much as romantic love stories. What I…
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Maybe it is just okay to be scared?
Scared to open up and get hurt. Scared because I have no clear path of where to go next. Scared of loosing control over my body. My reasoning keeps on talking into myself, why all of those are irrational. And my tired self just wants all of them to disappear. Yet is that really what…
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Fighting Resistance.
Resistance arises. I feel like I want to change things. Try to pull. Try to push. “Go away.” I tell the thoughts in my head. “Leave me alone.” I think towards my opponent. My body tightens. My thoughts can only focus on one thing. I don’t see the horizon anymore. My whole center is filled…
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Radical acceptance.
What if I just commit to myself? Fully and unapologetically. Not to someone not to something, only to myself. As I grow so do the challenges in my life. It will never get easier, it will just expand. Harder and more beautiful. When I doubt, when it hurts, I sit with the pain. So what…
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Consistency also means missing certain days.
Consistency also means missing certain days. And still pick it back up. No matter what decision I make. The decision can be perfectly right. I will always have moments of doubting it. That’s completely normal and not an indication on the rightness of my choice. Sometimes a break is more important, than following through. If…
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“What does my body already know, that my mind hasn’t caught up to yet?”
Little pieces of paper I keep in my pockets, I pull them out and read: “What does my body already know, that my mind hasn’t caught up with yet?” And suddenly in the middle of the biggest crisis, my instinctive answer surprised me; “That I am always safe, that I have enough, that I am…
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Allowing the feeling to be felt.
Just feeling the feeling and going through it. Nothing else. Even though all my notebooks are full of intentions to live my life more cyclical, I had completely forgotten about this. “What season am I in right now?” was one of them. But maybe I have to ask at an even smaller level. Maybe a…
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Transforming fear into growth.
When I feel the fear I think I am all alone with it. When I name it in front of someone else for the first time I feel shy and nervous. “How embarrassing to admit…” I think. Until I give words to my feelings. And then they are met in resonance. I relax, I gain…
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Where to set your Boundaries.
Lately I noticed, I only react once my boundaries are crossed long time ago. Only then I notice where they where or should have been. Or at least thats what it feels like. How many people tried to interfere into my peace today. Too many. Why is it so hard for me to hold my…
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What if I just allow myself to get there?
A bit stressed because I feel like by now I have to have the perfect format for this Blog figured out. At the same time I am well aware, that this is neither possible nor necessary. I have this neat picture in my head. Sharing value to you who reads. Short, to the point and…
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