Why am I writing, to who, what about and what for?

That’s where I am at, again.

Wondering which word will make it out of my head into these letters and which ones I better keep for myself. Who is going to read it anyways? Looks like you are.

But who are you? Do I have to mind what you find interesting? Or do I have to focus on keeping it real? Are these even two separate things?

What if real gets too personal? Should I share it anyways, dare to expose? Or is there a limit, are there things I have to keep to myself?

Which thoughts are relevant enough? Am I following a theme or is it all and nothing? Am I expressing myself or a chosen part of myself?

Sometimes I get bored talking about myself. Sometimes I would rather know who you are, what you think.

Sometimes I wonder if it is a little to daring, expecting you to read my thoughts and words. Why should you?

But then you show up and I love the interactions we have. I adore every reply you give me, there is this wonderful exchange that blossoms up each time.

And then again I wonder, where are all these words going? Out there into a pile of others, lost forever entangled between waves, dots, sentences and gazillions of numbers.

Why all this pressure?

Because I am not sure wether I do this just because I enjoy it, or if I should get this somewhere where I can live off it.

Which of my writing do I truly like?

When I feel a bit on the edge. Like I have just went a little too far, a little too personal. When I write about freedom and cycling. When I write about my experiences, just as they are. When I ask you questions because I genuinely want to know your side on the subject. When I have a theme to write about an idea, a project.

But then again, why should you read it?

Because if you’ll read my words, I want them to be of value to you too. Personally I know the value I get out of writing. It is because I get to frame my thoughts into words, put them down. It clears up my mind and I enjoy the process, a lot. But I am not considering the other side there, you. What do you want to read about?

Why am I writing, to who, what about and what for?

Is this a business or a hobby?

Thanks for stopping by, have a lovely Thursday!

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